Rolling Stone Magazine (May 24,
2001)
A
Date With Destiny

By
Jancee Dunn
The students of Millard North High
School in Omaha, Nebraska, were trying hard to raise their hands
in the air, but they were just a little overwhelmed. Many of them,
in fact, looked like stunned mullets, for the entertainment at
their school assembly in the gym was not the usual fare -- a Doors
cover band called Crystal Ship, say -- but septuple-platinum,
controversy-plagued, Grammy-collecting superstars Destiny's Child.
It seems the kids won a radio contest by scraping together 1.6
million pennies to benefit underprivileged children and earned
themselves a drop-in visit from the ladies. "They were kind
of a baby band when the offer came to us," said school
principal Linda Wyatt as the students filed into the gym.
"Since then, they've been on all those award shows, and so
our kids are really excited."
And, indeed,
before Destiny's Child arrived, the audience of a couple of
thousand white kids ping-ponging off one another was in a frenzy,
even when Wyatt got up onto the specially assembled stage and
scolded them. "You need to calm down and be quiet!" she
said. "No one should be on anyone's shoulders! Feet on
ground!" Well. You won't hear that at the Smokin' Grooves
Tour. "This is probably the last high school concert
Destiny's Child is going to be giving!" she said, in a futile
attempt at invoking calm.
When the
group hit the stage, however, the kids slowly lowered their YOU
RULE signs. As the three members of Destiny's Child pranced
onstage -- with their tiny gold-lame hot pants and gyrating backup
dancers and glossy makeup and long, long legs clad in gold
stiletto boots -- it was as if they had just debarked from George
Clinton's Mothership. The three impossibly tall glamazons --
Beyonce Knowles, Kelly Rowland and Michelle Williams -- smoothly
ran through their hits: "Independent Women Part I,"
"No, No, No," "Jumpin!, Jumpin!." "How
y'all doing over here?" hollered a radiant Beyonce, her
golden hair in a ponytail. Fine, except for the kids who have the
walleyed look of the Today's Catch section of the supermarket,
clearly on funkiness overload. Forty-five minutes later, the trio
sweeps out of the gym and onto its plush tour bus, the stage is
disassembled, and members of the Millard North Mustangs soccer
team arrive for practice.
Now it is time to meet Destiny's Child, a group
that has, in the last two years, weathered a dizzying series of
ups (a slew of awards, the very top tier of fame) and downs --
litigious ex-members, endless rumors ("Beyonce's going
solo!") -- and endless whispers about Beyonce's dad, group
manager Mathew Knowles, a man who is allegedly so controlling that
if the Lord himself were in the band, Mr. Knowles would kick His
ass to the curb if He wasn't giving 100 percent. The original
Destiny's Child had four longtime members. Two of them, LaTavia
Roberson and LeToya Luckett, were dropped in 1999 and promptly
filed suit. Two replacements, Farrah Franklin, an aspiring
singer-actress, and Michelle, a former backup singer for Monica,
were brought in, and for a while, it was smooth sailing. Then the
relatively inexperienced Franklin allegedly began missing
engagements, a big no-no for a group that works harder than pack
mules. Shortly thereafter, Franklin was out of the
picture.
The group is
well aware of all the talk, so much so that the title of their new
album and single is "Survivor," thus named after Beyonce
heard a radio DJ chortling that Destiny's Child was just like the
TV show.
"They're
in the back," says the driver, grinning when he hears an
explosion of giggles. Huh? Here sit three young girls, barely out
of their teens (Beyonce is nineteen, actually, and Michelle and
Kelly are twenty), lounging in jeans and chomping on Cooler Ranch
Doritos.
"I love
to eat," announces Kelly, opening up a fresh bag of Chee-tos.
"I love it. I stood up there onstage and, like, halfway tried
to breathe, because I'm trying to hold my stomach in because I
just had a big meal."
They all
talk at once (ask about the bus, and receive simultaneously:
"It has a shower, and the water gets really hot!"
crossed with "We have a CD burner, you can burn CDs right on
the bus!" and "You can completely sit up in the
bunks!"). These are the Sophisticated Ladies from the stage?
Readers, the disparity between the public and the private is
surreal. To meet them in person is to understand a little better
why Beyonce's folks keep a close eye on the three. They are not
world-weary divas but sheltered young women who travel in a
protective bubble of family (mom Tina Knowles is their stylist)
and friends of family, sometimes doing three cities in a day.
Beyonce recently filmed MTV's Hip Hopera: Carmen; she
tellingly describes it as a growing experience and not just
because it was her first starring movie role. "Besides Kelly
and Michelle, I'm not around people our age for more than
forty-five minutes," she says. "So I was around people
my age for a month and a half, and I made friends. So it was way
more than a movie for me."
Up close,
all three are beauties. Michelle, lean and long in tan pants and a
camouflage tank, is earthy and easygoing (as family friend Vernell
Jackson describes her, "one of them downhome-sister girls --
you know, eating corn-bread-and-red-beans-type girls"). Kelly
is lively and funny, a formerly shy girl who, everyone will tell
you, has come into her own with this album. Tasteful diamond
jewelry winks on her neck, wrist and fingers. (The rocks she's
wearin'? She bought them! "I got a good deal," she
says.) Beyonce, who speaks in a honeyed drawl punctuated by
frequent giggles, wears a sequined T-shirt with David Bowie's face
on it. (The T-shirt she's wearin? Kelly customized it!) The girl
is just impossibly curvy, with luminous, tawny skin.
It is
well-known that these three are very spiritual. When the Lord is
invoked, which is often, they hold their hands heavenward, like a
miniature wave at a stadium. "We are blessed," they will
say solemnly. Indeed, they are bubbling over with goodwill, for it
is a new beginning for the trio. The lawsuit against the group has
been settled. "By the grace of God, it's all over," says
Kelly, raising a hand. Survivor reflects that exuberance --
it pops with giddy energy and positive vibes. "The lyrics to
the single `Survivor' are Destiny's Child's story, because we've
been through a lot," says Beyonce. "We went through our
drama with the members, and everybody was like, `Oh, well, no more
Destiny's Child! Well, we sold even more records after all of the
changes. Any complications we've had in our ten-year period of
time have made us closer and tighter and better."
The album,
which was co-written and coproduced by Beyonce, features, for the
first time, all three members singing lead on every song.
"Which is something that Kelly and I wanted from the very
beginning," says Beyonce. "We couldn't do that for the
first two albums." The single "Survivor" was the
first song recorded for the album, and its theme informed the rest
of the tracks. "We were like, `All the songs from this point
on are gonna be about surviving something,'" Beyonce adds.
"It wasn't talking about relationships as much, like the last
album." Thus, there is a song called "Story of
Beauty," inspired by a fan's letter to Kelly, in which the
fan wrote that she was molested by a stepfather.
"It's
letting her know that it's not her fault, and she can go on with
her life," says Michelle, throwing her leg casually over
Kelly's. There are lighthearted tunes as well, such as "Happy
Face," a sunny track about having a positive attitude, as
well as the bouncing "Bootylicious," an ode to the joys
of having a big ol' butt. "If you've got a big booty, then
it's OK," says Michelle, shrugging. "Put on some pants
and be confident."
Another
breezy track, one of the album's standouts, is the sassy,
infectious "Apple Pie a la Mode," a juicy little number
about, as Kelly puts it, "a dude who's just
scrumptious." She reaches for another bag of chips. It is
very warm back here in the tour bus, made a tad stuffier by the
not-unpleasant smell of Chee-tos and Doritos dust.
While we are
on the subject of dudes, here's a shocker. "All three of us
are single," announces Michelle, grinning. "Honest to
God," says Beyonce, holding up a hand. "I did have a
boyfriend for a little while, but right now I have no
boyfriend." For the curious, he was a guy named Lindell from
her hometown. ("Oh, he's gorgeous," says family-friend
Jackson. "He looks like Maxwell, I'm serious. Really a
handsome guy.") "We still talk all the time,"
Beyonce says. "We're like childhood friends."
The three
women have thrown themselves into singlehood with the same work
ethic that applies to the rest of their lives. "We're reading
books to inspire each other," says Kelly, grabbing her foot
to inspect her pink pedicure. One is a selfhelp tome called Knight
in Shining Armor: Discovering Your Lifelong Love. "It's
about putting yourself under construction," says Kelly.
"Fixing yourself from the mind -- how you feel about your
body to how you look at guys. So you won't look at guys as just
all dogs, because there are some good men out there." All of
them nod.
"We
bring each other reports every day," says Beyonce.
"Reports on people that we talk to every once in a while. I
mean, we still go out to the movies, or go to dinner, but nothing
is in stone."
Because you
men out there still have a chance -- well, theoretically at least,
here are a few tips on how to score yourselves a date with
Destiny.
1. Become a backup
dancer or a tour-bus driver. "When are we anyplace for more than forty-five
minutes?" says Beyonce. "We've done four cities in a
day. When are we around people? Unless they're a dancer on the
road with us, or a DJ or something. It's just very
difficult." Michelle agrees: "And we don't go out -- we
don't go anyplace." The prior evening, for instance, the
three played a show, then ate pizza and chocolate cake and watched
Forrest Gump on the tour bus. "Really, we're not
exposed to a lot of guys," says Beyonce. "People just
think that. They see us on
TV, around
all these people. But really, we might get approached, what, every
couple of months?" Which leads us neatly into the next point.
2. Make
the first move.
"I'm sorry, I am very old-fashioned," declares Kelly,
who says that she has never been in love. "I would never
approach a dude. I will never ask a dude to go on a date. I am
stuck in the whatever century. But also, some guys are, like,
intimidated, and you could be giving this dude eye contact from
across the room, and y'all are just feeling each other, and you're
welcoming each other with your eyes, and you're like, `C'mere,
apple pie a la mode!' But you know he's intimidated in some
way." She sighs.
3. Don't
bother sending that bottle of Cristal over to their table.
"In Rolling Stone, it said that I was at Wyclef's
afterparty, sipping on champagne," says Beyonce. "I
don't drink." "We're role models, so we watch
ourselves," says Kelly. "And not just when we go to
parties." "Because, you know, we're underage
still," Michelle points out.
4. Pickup
lines such as "I'll pay your bills, bills, bills" will
not work unless you are Tyrese.
And you aren't.
5. Do not
assume that the girls think they are all that. "One day, I counted the blemishes on my face,"
says Beyonce. "Got up to thirty-five. It's so irritating to
read in articles people saying, `She thinks she's beautiful!'
There's a lot of days that I wake up, and I hate how I look."
A particular sore spot is her ears. "When I was little, my
head was smaller and I looked like I had big Dumbo ears," she
says darkly. "I still do not wear my ears out, and that's why
I wear big earrings, because they camouflage your ears."
Don't even get them started on muscle tone. "We're gonna
start jogging and doing sit-ups, so by the next video we can have
big muscles," plans Beyonce. "We want to be like Tina
Turner." She lifts up a leg. "My legs are kind of
muscular, but the rest of me is not." "Oh, hush, Beyonce,"
says Kelly. "She a brick house."
6.
Acquaint yourself with He who made the Earth and the Heavens, and
every plant of the field before it was in the Earth, and every
Herb of the field before it grew.
"God has a plan," says Beyonce, "and God is in
control of everything." "Yes, he is," Kelly
testifies. "There is no way in the world that you can tell me
that this was not meant to be -- three people with the same
dreams, the same goals."
In order to
better understand Destiny's Child, we must head to Beyonce and
Kelly's hometown of Houston and drop by the two places where the
girls spent the most time: church and the Headliners Hair Salon.
Tina Knowles is actually the owner, but as she is on the road with
the girls most of the time, her best friend, Vernell Jackson,
presides as manager. It's a Friday night at 7:30, and the joint is
jumping: Rick James is on the speakers, a pigtailed little girl
runs around the shop, and five stylists are hard at work on
customers. One stylist is tall and stately, with long, lush blond
hair, exactly like . . . Beyonce? He turns around. It's Beyonce's
second cousin, Kenric. Dang. The resemblance is uncanny.
There are two posters of Destiny's Child in the
window, and by the register there's a glass case displaying
Destiny's Child T-shirts. As customers leave, some of them say,
"I'll see you Sunday," meaning church. There is a direct
path from Headliners to the
church and
back. Jackson, a warm, pretty woman in dark red braids, hurries
over. She has known Beyonce and Kelly forever and is very patient
when the calls come into the salon. "From all over the
country," she says, laughing. "'I want to speak to
Beyonce! Is Michelle there? I want to speak to Miss Tina!'"
They send photos, pleading letters, tapes; they ask about
Beyonce's latest hairstyle. Back in the day, the girls (Beyonce,
Kelly, plus original members Roberson and Luckett) used to try out
routines in the salon, when it was on Montrose Boulevard. As Tina
recalls, "They used to go in and perform, and make the
customers sit there." She laughs. "The customers
couldn't leave, because they were locked under the dryers."
"Sometimes
we would collect tips," recalls Beyonce, "and go to this
theme park called AstroWorld."
"They
were about nine or ten," Jackson recalls. "They would do
their little routines, and Mathew would ask us to critique: 'Well,
what do you think? What needs to be worked on?' And they would
start all over again. Beyonce particularly always had that thing
about, 'I want to do it right.' She wanted to work on it, like her
singing and her voice lessons and her dancing. She always wanted
to be maybe like Janet Jackson or Michael Jackson -- those type of
people." Destiny's Child was always a family affair -- Tina
Knowles designed the girls' costumes, while Mathew quit his job
selling medical equipment to manage the quartet. During the school
year, they performed local gigs -- schools, even a day-care
center: "It had a little stage," says Beyonce, "and
before the performance, we were trying to figure out the name of
our group." (Oh, there have been many: Cliche, GirlsTyme,
Somethin' Fresh.) She laughs. "It was about fifteen little
kids in the audience, who didn't know what was going on."
When summer
breaks came, Mathew formed a kind of structured summer camp for
them, filled with dance and vocal lessons and exercise.
"There was a lot of stuff they had to sacrifice," says
Jackson, "and that was basically the friendships that they
would have formed outside. But they were determined. And people
think that parents push your child to do this, but Mathew and Tina
weren't ever like that. The way they were was, `My daughter wants
to do it, and this is the one thing that she wants to do.'"
When Beyonce
talks about the bad press her dad gets, her voice catches. "I
don't even like to talk about it," she says haltingly.
"He is so protective of all of us, and he's a great father
and a great manager."
Kelly
considers him a father, too. Early on in the group's career, when
Kelly was nine, she moved in with the Knowles family, with the
blessing of her mom, Doris, then a nanny. (Kelly's father is not
in the picture. "Who's he?" she says dismissively.)
"I'm just so blessed to have Beyonce, who is like my sister,
and the Knowleses in my life when I was growing up," says
Kelly. "I am telling you, I couldn't dance. You know, it took
some work on Kelly to get to where she is today."
"They
were always like sisters," says Jackson. "When Kelly
started out, she was this little shy person who wouldn't open her
mouth. And when I see her now -- she gets up and she talks. And
I'm like, `Where did this person come from?"' She laughs.
"Her and her little dog." She yells to someone,
"What's Kelly's dog's name?"
"Jacques,"
someone hollers back.
"Jacques.
I think he walks like Kelly, too."
There were a
series of setbacks in the early days, including a loss on Star
Search. "Even when it hurt so bad, we're still smiling,"
remembers Kelly, "and when we walked offstage, everybody just
broke down. Imagine ten- or eleven-year olds just breaking down
and crying." She shakes her head. "Now that I'm thinking
about it, I want to cry."
In 1996, the
quartet got its big break and put its debut album out on Columbia
two years later. The group's career really ignited with 1999's
hitpacked The Writing's on the Wall, which turned out to be
a prescient title. Around that time, it seemed as if the four were
splitting into two different groups. Tensions steadily mounted
along with the band's fame, and in March of 2000, Roberson and
Luckett charged Mathew with, among other things, breach of
contract and favoritism (the lawsuit against Mathew is still
pending).
After the
split, Beyonce was so upset she stayed in bed for weeks. She
prayed, wept and sought spiritual guidance at St. John's United
Methodist Church in Houston. Let's pay a visit, shall we? Beyonce
and Kelly have been attending services since they were knee-high,
and their devotion is so complete that they will often take a
Saturday red-eye flight from wherever they are in the country,
attend services and then climb back on the plane. "It's a
real special place," says the girls' pastor, Rudy Rasmus.
"We started with nine folk nine years ago; now it's 4,600.
Even though it's a large community, it's really like a small
town." Pastor Rasmus is a charismatic man, generous with
hugs, crackling with good-humored energy. He wears jeans and a
baseball cap. "We don't do suits here," he says, picking
up a kid who scurries by and giving him a hug. It is early
Saturday morning, but the church is in full swing -- the daycare
center is jammed with children, and a boisterous group of
volunteers is gathering in the lobby to work in the adjacent soup
kitchen.
A woman runs
into the lobby. "Quick, y'all," she tells the group.
"My brother's outside in the car. This is the closest he'll
ever get to church." Whooping, they all run outside.
"The
girls grew up here," says Pastor Rasmus. "Beyonce sang
in the choir. They come to church here -- Mathew, Tina, Beyonce,
Kelly and Michelle and there's no spotlight on them. Folks leave
them alone." He reconsiders, then laughs.
"Well,
it's kinda hard for a fourteen-year-old boy or girl to look at 'em
this close and not be affected. And it's kinda funny, but our
attendance in that age group exponentially increased."
Pastor
Rasmus, for one, is unsurprised by the group's success.
"These girls have always had the desire to do this
thing," he says, settling into a pew. "And when we met 'em
as children, you could see that: `We're gonna do it.' And Mathew
is a very determined guy, so I had few doubts that he was gonna
ultimately do it. And I've seen the sacrifices that he and Tina
have made to see this happen." He leans forward. "And
that's one thing I really admire about them -- they're taking no
prisoners as it relates to someone messing with their kids. I
mean, just because the kids are making money doesn't mean you just
release them to the wolves. Who are circling."
The
congregation of St. John's has had the group members on its prayer
list for the last seven years. "There are many times that we
know they're gonna be going through something, that we pray extra,
and they've had those times during their careers," he says.
"You know, lots of transition."
After the
two original members left the group, Farrah Franklin, then
eighteen, stepped in, as did Michelle, nineteen. Five months after
joining, Franklin, who had allegedly missed a series of
promotional appearances, was gone. "She had some
issues," says Michelle, who we find primping in a New York
dressing room for a photo shoot. "Apple Pie A la Mode"
is cranking on a boombox, and everyone in the room is dancing as
they work. "She just couldn't handle the stress and the work
that comes with this. I don't know if she thought that it was
gonna be all fun and games, but it's not." As Michelle
herself found out: During the first two weeks she was with the
group, she rehearsed twelve hours a day, every day.
At the time,
Michelle was also battling insecurity. "I mean, many tears
were shed," she says. "I was comparing myself to other
members, and the pressure was on me."
Michelle,
the daughter of a nurse and a car salesman, grew up in Rockford,
Illinois. Her family was primarily composed of healthcare
professionals ("Everyone's sitting around the table at family
dinners, talking about medicine"). Michelle originally wanted
to be an obstetrician, even enrolling as a pre-med student at the
University of Illinois. Then, through a series of friends, she got
the gig singing for Monica. Shortly thereafter, a choreographer
friend hooked her up with Destiny's Child. She was flown to
Houston, where she stayed with the Knowles family. "They
didn't take me to a hotel, where they're in a conference room and
say, `Dance! Sing!' " says Michelle. "They welcomed me
into their house."
"And
she slept in our beds," adds Beyonce, getting her hair done
by her mom. Right away, the friendship among the three clicked
into place. Beyonce and Kelly offered support, in fact, when
Michelle experienced a pivotal first event in a girl's life. (You
female readers will understand.) "I got my mustache waxed for
the first time," says Michelle. "Beyonce's mom was there
to hold my hand, because I didn't know what was going on."
They all smile at each other fondly, lost in the moment.
Michelle, it
is clear, is here to stay. (The girl is already press-savvy. When
asked whether Destiny's Child played at the Republican
inauguration because they are Republicans, she says crisply,
"We're not gonna discuss our political backgrounds
here.")
With the
trio solidified, says Beyonce, "my life is perfect now.
People want to read about us and the old members, and how we
didn't get along," she adds. "Who cares? It's done. We
do get along, we do love each other and support each other."
They try to
ignore the haters, they say -- although Kelly did lose it not too
long ago, when a fan approached and said he was happy Beyonce
"let her sing" on the Charlie's Angels
soundtrack. "I got ghetto and ignorant," she declares.
Beyonce
grins. "She was like, `What did y'all say? She didn't let me
sang? That is my sister that you're talking about!' I was like,
`Kelly, calm down.'"
Yes, there
are plans for each member to have a solo album, but that is in the
distant future. "It was a rumor that I had a $3 million solo
deal," says Beyonce, inspecting her eye makeup in a mirror.
"And I was like, `What?' As soon as you get successful, they
want to make you Diana Ross. We're not even planning on recording
those albums until, like, a year from now."
"We're
not rushing into it at all," says Kelly. They can't, anyway.
They've got a big summer tour right around the bend. They haven't
been home in months ("Beyonce was laughing and crying the
other day," says Kelly. "That's when I knew it was time
to go home"), but this is what they have always wanted. They
are well aware of the ADD-afflicted nature of pop music, so they
pray. They strategize. They consult Billboard. And they
work. "You can't get a big head, because it will be taken
away from you in a second," says Beyonce. "A lot of
artists don't understand that. They think if they get a record,
they'll be here forever. We have seen people that stopped being
hungry, who have no career right now. We have worked, worked,
worked, worked, worked."
Kelly holds
up a testifying hand. "As long as we love each other, stay
positive and, more than anything don't take our eyes off God,
we're gonna be fine." And they probably will be, God bless 'em.
(RS 869,
May 24, 2001)